this mentality of, "there's always something better."
or maybe you just become apathetic. you get distracted.
it seems to be an ongoing trend in todays american society...
i mean, it makes sense, welcome to the land of opportunity.
where has love, loyalty and soul disappeared to?
where have the ideals of peace and "we the people" gone?
a wall of preconditioned fabrications of facade and intoxication have blinded us.
it seems to be that those are more concerned with whom their associated with,
what they look like, what they're doing, what they do have... what they don't have.
seems we concentrate a lot on what we don't have.
and it sucks.
because there are those but have no choice but to suffer. who don't have anything.
who are caught in the true grind, because they have been cheated.
and they are aware.
do we care? maybe? but we still won't do anything about it.
and we just keep caring about things that do not matter.
we become soulless bodies floating the surface.
our city becomes a mystery on the map.
because what are we doing for the world? nothing.
and we let ourselves be run by deceit. we let ourselves be motivated by money.
we let ourselves believe the lies if that means we don't have to think.
i do find myself in the same dilemma. where's my heart at?
priorities? i find myself in a committed relationship- at last. and now i choose to concentrate on this more than school, more than work, even my family. and no longer am i participating in the systematic happiness; i no longer create art, i hardly even write. i don't even chase after my long gone friends. they're gone though, so what was the point? i feel i'm not even doing my part for this world.
i say, "i'm working from the inside out."
but am i really right now? i feel that i'm more caught up in the puppy love of a blossoming relationship.
i actually found someone i'm willing to commit to. someone i truly connect with. someone who shares the same ideals.
and i'm stoked.
this is something that at this point in time, i am completely okay with donating my time to.
it's a big step for me. maybe i see it as a challenge?
i do and will though, always spread love and peace.
having love for someone, even just a friend will change someone's life, if they can realize what's genuine and what is not. and hopefully, they too can spread that love.
i will never use violence. and i will always try to understand you.
it's a great, simple concept really.
people get flattered extremely easily. they get flattered you care. because they've been floating in a sea of hate and apathy towards the common man. not only from our government but from other people just like them.
so one person shows compassion and love towards them? it could easily create a domino effect.
at least for the day, until they wake up the next morning realizing they're still being cheated and are in actuality; unhappy.
but hey, i did what i could. i got you to notice and imitate. let's get back to the simple things in life.
we do not need intoxication to be happy or to have fun. lets take a walk instead of drive, its actually pretty nice.
smiling to a stranger. saying hi. home cooking? it all sounds good. we're just in too much of a rush to see the small details in life. it's all about the big picture, right?
who we're going to marry. how you're going to make the big bucks. heaven?
hell.
but of course, no one thinks they're going to hell.
is there even a hell? i say bullshit. god's not that evil............ he just wanted to spice things up. just like he wants to spice up our world with hunger and war.
bring it back.
